第161期：爸爸妈妈，我想说说心里话

想成为我们的主播，欢迎加微信 xdfbook 投稿。 一段美文，一首英文歌，或是一点生活感想，全由你做主。 《爸爸妈妈，我想说说心里话》 An Open Letter to My Parents Dear Mom and Dad, I know I tell you every day that I love you both, but sometimes saying “I love you” isn’t enough for me. Sometimes, “I love you” doesn’t entirely express just how deeply I care for the two of you, at least that’s in my opinion. But, without any explanation, I tend to shy away from talking about emotions or subjects of that matter which I’m sure you’ve already realized. I guess this is why I’ve always found comfort in writing. So, before I go off at a tangent ) as I so often do, here’s everything I’ve always wanted to say. I realize these last several years have been anything but easy for us. I guess you could say that one April morning in 1991 really changed the course of our lives immensely. Were you scared that day? What was it like hearing the doctors tell you that I wouldn’t live past 2 1/2 years old? Or that I had some rare genetic disorder that, at the time, no one really knew about? I can’t even begin to imagine the pain it must have caused. I’m so sorry you had to experience this, but look how miraculously wonderful things turned out to be. Although my life journey started off rather grievous ) and unpredictable, I wasn’t about to ) let my disease decide my fate. Our lives have been put to the test more times than I can remember, but there’s never been a situation we couldn’t overcome. That’s the beauty of the relationship we share. We’ve been a team, always, and we’ve fought through every curve ball life has thrown at us ), together. And with that, I have to say thank you. Thank you for being my guiding light in the dark. Thank you for holding me through every tear and every moment of uncertainty as I questioned my ability to fight through another hardship, another illness. Thank you for doing everything in your power to give me so much more than I deserve. Thank you for allowing me to live the most fulfilling life possible. Believe me when I say I wouldn’t be where I am today if it weren’t for the undying love and support you have unconditionally given me. My successes over the last 23 years are solely ) attributed to the fact that you have always given me the courage and motivation to soar. You have taught me to dream fearlessly. In times of weakness, you have given me strength. You have unselfishly put my needs before your own, and you are the reason I’ve progressed so well and continue to thrive ). We may have had our fair share of ) difficulties along the road but we have each other, and that’s all I could ever ask for. Mom and dad, at the end of the day as I drift off to sleep , I think about how incredibly lucky I am to have you in my life. Each and every day, I thank God for my blessings. I thank Him for my brother, my good health and, most importantly, for you both. I know it may not always seem this way, especially when I get into those dreaded bad moods. It’s just that sometimes I let my demons get the best of me ), and I tend to shut down ). Like I said before, I haven’t quite figured out how to deal with my emotions effectively yet. But I take full accountability ) for all those times I’ve released my anger and frustration out on you. So, please forgive me. I imagine I must not be too pleasant when I act this way, but promise me you’ll always remember that I mean well. Because I love you. And I hope this letter expresses how much I really mean when I say those words to you. Love always, Your baby girl 亲爱的爸爸妈妈， 我知道自己每天都会说我爱你们，但有时候光说“我爱你们”对我来说远远不够。有时“我爱你们”不能完全道出我有多在乎你们，至少我是这样想的。但是，没缘由地，我总是避免谈论起与此相关的个人情感或话题，我想你们肯定早就察觉到我的这些想法了。我猜这也是为什么我总是能够在写作中找到安慰。所以，在我像往常一样突然偏离正题之前，我要写出自己一直以来想要说的话。 我明白过去这些年对我们来说绝不容易。我想你们可以说1991年4月的一个早晨切切实实地让我们的人生轨迹发生了巨变。你们那天害怕吗？当听到医生说我活不过两岁半时你们是什么感觉？或者说，当得知我患了某种罕见的遗传性疾病，而当时又无人真正了解这种病时，你们又是什么心情？我甚至无法开始去想象这件事带给你们的痛苦有多深。你们不得不去经历这些，我真的很抱歉。但你们看，现在事情变得多么美好，就像一个奇迹。尽管我人生之路的最初是那么痛苦和不可预知，但我不会让疾病主宰我的命运。 我都记不清我们的生活经历过多少次考验了，但是从没有哪种难关是我们闯不过去的。这就是我们共享的亲情之美所在。我们一直是一个团队，永远都是；我们曾克服了生活丢给我们的一次次苦难，并肩作战。因为这些，我必须说谢谢你们。谢谢你们一直在黑暗中做我的指路明灯。谢谢你们在我质疑自己是否有能力击退一场又一场苦难和疾病时，拥着我度过每一个流泪而徘徊的时刻。谢谢你们做了你们能做的一切，给予我太多太多，远超我所应得。谢谢你们让我拥有尽可能最充实的人生。 请相信我说的这句话——如果不是你们无条件地给予我永恒的爱和支持，我将不会是今天这个样子。我在过去23年里取得的成功完全归功于你们的努力——是你们一直赋予我展翅翱翔的勇气和动力。你们教我追求梦想要无所畏惧。在我脆弱的时候，你们赋予我力量。你们总是无私地将我的需求置于你们自己的需求之前，是你们让我取得如此大的进步，不断茁壮成长。尽管我们在人生道路上遇到了太多的困难，但是我们拥有彼此，这也是我这辈子所能要求的全部。 爸爸妈妈，在这一天即将结束，我也将迷迷糊糊入睡之际，我在想，我的生命中能拥有你们，我简直幸运得不可思议。每一天，我都感谢上帝赐予我的福分。我感谢他赐予我一个兄弟，赐予我健康，更重要的是，赐予我你们两个。我知道事情看上去可能并不是一直如此，尤其是当我陷入那些可怕的坏情绪中时。那只是因为有时候我让身体中的恶魔占了上风，变得倾向于自我封闭。就像我以前说过的，我还没有真正找到管理自我情绪的有效方法。我曾一次次对你们发泄怒火和挫败情绪，但那都是我的错。所以，请你们原谅我。我想我这么做时一定不会令人开心，但请答应我，你们会永远记得我本意是好的。因为我爱你们。而且，我希望这封信里对你们说的话能够真切地表达出我的本意。 永远爱你们，你们的宝贝女儿 文章摘自：《新东方英语·中学生》杂志2016年10月号