紫丁香-马修·迪克曼-石火中文朗读-180507

紫丁香 马修·迪克曼 看一眼紫丁香，那气味 把我带回童年—— 狗挠着玻璃滑动门，残破的 瓶子浮出草地 就像另一种草，肮脏的毛巾 搭在 树根上，莱苏尔罐子， 兰欧福斯的 火鸡肉包装—— 我要面对这些东西， 在春天肥大圆满的雨水中， 那些紫色，或者像有人说的什么 粉紫色的花 还有白色的 丁香。它们的气味 就像我的兄弟姊妹，就像我刚出生的 儿子的耳后根，就像这个 我会为之杀人的婴孩。 在他出生之前 我不会杀任何人。但现在我会。 在我喝过一杯星巴克咖啡， 还有一块 很棒的柠檬糖霜 蛋糕之后 我并没有想杀人的事， 我一边读报一边 把他拥在我的胸前 听着他身体中活着的声音 在他母亲的体外 活着，而那紫丁香 在街道之外，在每个人 之外，沉甸甸地立在雨中。 Lilac BY MATTHEW DICKMAN One look at the lilac, one smell and my childhood is-- dogs scratching at the sliding glass door, bits of bottles coming up like grass in the grass, a dirty towel down by the feet of the tree, Lysol cans, small packets of Land O’Frost turkey meat-- there in front of me in spring, in the wonderfully fat rain, flowering purple and whatever the pinkish purple is called and the white ones too. They smell like my siblings, like the backs of my infant son’s ears, like my son whom I would kill someone for. Before he was born I wouldn’t kill anyone. But now I would. And after I’d get a coffee from Starbucks, a coffee and a piece of that amazing lemon-frosted lemon cake and think nothing of it, and read the paper and hold him against my chest and listen to his body living, alive outside his mother’s body, and the lilac outside on the street, outside everyone, and heavy in the rain.