4.26Breakdown😭

A breakdown is not merely a random piece of madness or malfunction. It’s a very real albeit very inarticulate bid for health. It is an attempt by one part of our minds to force the other into a process of growth, self-understanding and self-development, which it has hitherto refused to undertake. If we can put it paradoxically, it’s an attempt to jump-start a process of getting well, properly well, through a stage of falling very ill. A breakdown isn’t just a pain, though it is that too of course. It’s an extraordinary opportunity to learn. The reason we break down is that we have not over many years flexed very much. There were things we needed to hear inside our minds that we deafly put to one side. There were messages we needed to heed, bits of emotional learning and communicating we didn’t do. And now after being patient for so long, far too long, the emotional self is attempting to make itself heard in the only way it now knows how. 情绪崩溃不仅仅是一次随机发生的精神错乱或者精神失常。崩溃是一种真实的，尽管难以用语言表达的对于健康的争取。崩溃是一部分大脑尝试强迫另一部分大脑去成长、自我理解和自我发展，而此前，另一部分大脑拒绝这样做。 如果我们矛盾地解释一下的话，崩溃就是一种尝试——通过一个阶段的重病来推动康复过程。崩溃不仅仅是一种痛苦，虽然它当然确实是。崩溃是一个奇妙的学习机会。 我们崩溃的原因是多年来没有好好释放自己。大脑中有一些我们需要倾听的声音我们装作聋子一般置之不理。有一些我们需要注意的信息，一些情绪上的学习和交流我们没有做。 然后现在，在长期隐忍，太久的隐忍之后，情绪自身开始尝试用它知道的唯一方式来让自己得到倾听。