第168期：谢谢你们讨厌我

想成为我们的主播，欢迎加微信 xdfbook 投稿。 一段美文，一首英文歌，或是一点生活感想，全由你做主。 《谢谢你们讨厌我》 A Thank You Note to My Haters Dear Haters, Thank you for always doubting me and always trying to bring me down ). Thank you for laughing at all of my failures and being filled with pride when you outshine me in school and, I guess, life in general. Thank you for spreading all gossip that there is about me and about the shameful shenanigans ) that I got into last night. Believe it or not they were pretty fun, but you wouldn't know since you weren't there. Instead, you found amusement in talking about them, which is perfectly ok since I am pretty entertaining. The judgmental glances and the slight roll of the eyes whenever I graced ) you with my presence was actually the highlight of some of my days, and they will be forever appreciated. I am impressed that you know that some of the negative things that you say about me can hurt me on the inside. You have a talent of seeing beyond my “give no shits )" exterior ) and know how I am insecure about myself at times and how the opinions that others have towards me can mean a lot. Sometimes, the hiding that I do fails and you can see how easily bothered I am when I do fail or make a fool of myself. Congratulations, you can read me well. Honestly, you do not get the credit ) that you deserve. Trying to bring me down takes a lot of effort and quite frankly, you should consider it a job and maybe can even put it on a resume. I am using the word maybe because in reality you will never be able to put it on a resume due to your lack of success with it. You will never be successful at that job because you cannot bring me down! Yeah, you can read me well but not well enough. You fail to see that failure and adversity only empower me. I might be insecure about myself at times, but my insecurity only leaves room for self-improvement. The thrill that you get from seeing me make a fool of myself or fail at something only inspires me to work harder. In return, I receive a thrill when I see the look of surprise on your face when I outshine you and succeed. What can I say? I don't follow the status quo ) and I like exceeding expectations and doing the unexpected. Your low expectations of me make it pretty easy to continue surprising you. For the most part though, I am pretty satisfied with who I am because it is obvious that you see me as a threat. Otherwise, you wouldn't hate me so much. Your genuine hatred towards me only serves as an indicator ) that I am amazing and am doing something right. Like Beyoncé, I love all of you, my haters, and I will keep on working towards being "flawless" due to you all. Once again, thanks for all that you do. Never stop hating. Sincerely, Me 亲爱的讨厌我的人： 感谢你们一直以来质疑我，并极力想将我打垮。感谢你们嘲笑我的每次失败，以及你们在学校，我想，通常还有在生活中胜过我时内心充满的骄傲。感谢你们到处散布关于我以及昨晚让我中招的那些可耻恶作剧的所有流言蜚语。信不信由你，那些恶作剧都挺有趣的，但未曾亲自体会，你们也不会了解。相反，你们从谈论那些事情的过程中找到了乐趣，这完全没问题，因为我就是非常有趣。每当我的出现衬得你们更加美丽时，你们便向我投来肆意评判的目光，还冲我微微翻白眼，可实际上，这些都为我的一些日子平添了一份色彩，我将永远感谢那些时刻。 你们很清楚你们散布的关于我的负面消息中有一些能够刺伤我的心，这让我深感钦佩。你们天赋异禀，能够透过我“毫不在意”的外表窥视到我有时多么不自信，别人的意见对我来说有多么重要。有时候，我没有隐藏好，让你们能觉察当我真的失败或出洋相时我是多么容易感到困扰。恭喜你们，你们很了解我。 老实说，你们并没有获得应有的赞许。努力将我打垮需要花费很大力气，而且坦白地讲，你们应该把这当成一份工作，甚至可以写进简历里。我这么说也许是因为在现实中你们永远无法将其写进简历里，因为你们没能得逞。你们将永远无法完成这项工作，因为你们无法把我打垮！ 是的，你们挺了解我，但了解得还不够。你们看不到失败和逆境只会给我力量。我有时可能会对自己没信心，但我的不自信只会留给我自我进步的空间。你们看到我出丑或失败时的兴奋感只会激励我更加努力。反之，当我胜过你们、取得成功的时候，你们脸上惊讶的表情也会让我感到兴奋。我该怎么说呢？我不满足于现状，我喜欢超越预期，喜欢出人意料。你们对我的微小期待使我很容易就能让你们惊奇不断。 但多数情况下，我对现在的自己非常满意，因为你们显然将我视为一种威胁。否则，你们不会如此妒恨我。你们打心眼 里对我的妒恨只能充当指示器，说明我很了不起，我在做正确的事情。 就像碧昂斯所说的一样，讨厌我的人，我爱你们，而且我会为了你们所有人继续朝着“完美”的方向努力。再次重申，感谢你们所做的一切。永远不要停止讨厌我。 真诚的我 文章摘自：《新东方英语·中学生》杂志2016年11月号