The reading soothes me. This night information is my lifeline out of useless fear and worry. This night information was the best kind of therapy. I was to find this was always true for me in the future. The more I knew, the more secure I felt, even if the news was bad. Ignorance frightens me; knowledge soothes me. The worst part is not knowing… definitely the worst part is not knowing.
I crawl back into bed, push against Ken ‘s warm body. He is awake, silently looking at the skylight. “I’m not going to leave you, you know.” “I know.” “I really think we can beat this, kid. We just have to figure out what the hell we’re going to do…”