88 Commitment
RECENTLY I TAUGHT a weekend program in a kind of New Age spiritual shopping mart. Mine was one of about seventy different workshops being presented. The people in the parking lot or at lunch would say to each other, “Oh, what are you taking this weekend?” I hadn’t encountered anything like that for a long time.
Once I was shopping around for a spiritual path myself. In order to stop, I had to hear my teacher Chögyam Trungpa say that shopping around is an attempt to find security, an attempt to find a way to always feel good about yourself. You can hear the dharma from many different places, but you are uncommitted until you encounter a particular way that rings true in your heart and you decide to follow it. In order to go deeper, there has to be a wholehearted commitment. You begin the warrior’s journey when you choose one path and stick to it. Then you let it put you through your changes. Without a commitment, the minute you really begin to hurt, you’ll just leave or you’ll look for something else.
The question always remains: To what are we really committed? Is it to playing it safe and manipulating our life and the rest of the world so that it will give us security and confirmation? Or is our commitment to exploring deeper and deeper levels of letting go? Do we take refuge in small, self-satisfied actions, speech, and mind? Or do we take refuge in warriorship, in taking a leap, in going beyond our usual safety zones?